My 5 year old

I have three beautiful children and if I had my way I would have loads more - think husband would have heart attack though lol. I have written on here before about my oldest that he has OCD and they suspect that this is part of the autistic spectrum - if it is it is only a very small part but what we have come to realise during the last year is he has no empathy - I found this very hard to deal with as I am such a caring person, at first I thought we were just imagining it but now we know that it is true. I have decided the best way for me to cope with it is to realise that is just the way he is supposed to be. As with all my children he is my life and nothing could make me love him any of the less. I tell him that God made him first because he realised that he was special enough to take care of his brother and sister and he loves this fact. Even though he has no empathy he is the most caring little boy to his brother and sister and idolises them which is beautiful. Unfortunately he kind of has what I can only imagine as tunnel vision emotionally. I don't know really why I am writing this as I don't usually write personal things on my blog but I for 2010 it is one of my things not to worry about him as I have for the past year and to just accept that this is how he is - it is part of him and that is fine. He is still my little boy - my little one who was in special care for 5 weeks because he was premature and was a tiny little scrap, my beautiful amazing son. You may wonder why I find it hard as it is only a small problem but sometimes it can be very upsetting to everyone around. Also due to his OCD he has behavioural problems and cannot control his temper and has huge tantrums sometimes up to 3 hours at a time. As I said I have been very upset over this but I am going to be very calm about it next year.